The Ballads of a Stranded Soul

Of the lies I've been told or said "Time will heal" is the gravest of them all!

Addiction!

“She’ll sting you one day.
Oh, ever so gently,
so you hardly even feel the sting
‘Til you fall dead”

 

Words would collide like distant stars
With explosions blinding the far away worlds
The beautiful remnants of the past
The colors would change from the unspoken thoughts
As Sometimes even the exuberant  words would fail to describe the
light that shone in your eyes
The smile that would ripen with every kiss on your lips
The memories that would overwhelm with every touch of your skin
An addiction manifesting into many urges
To hold you near to fill your soul with love and to write about the
magic you weave with your heart
An addiction that grew too strong too quick yet innocent
An addiction that stayed after all this time even as the words the
colors and the soul left
An addiction that replaced your smile with solace
And your touch with numbness and your heart with inebriation.

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Strophe

“In the beginning, it was all black and white”

 

This is an ode to the fates that have brought me to you at this hour today
A herald here to deliver me as I am, to my destiny
An encounter, 13 billion years in the making
This is an ode to the countless causes that have conspired for this coincidence between us
Standing in front of you, yearning for my beating heart to find your rhythm, and your song I will sing in the days to come as long as I bear this form.
Many a things I have been since the creation, eons I have traveled before I could gaze upon your smile
Learning every virtue with every form I took
Molded, shaped and reborn until I was worthy for this moment
As a rock I stood over the tallest mountains to learn patience,
Under the deepest oceans I lived to learn isolation and silence
As a tree I grew to give life and to nourish
As an animal I lived to learn to be wild and protective
As a bird I flew to live shortly and free
With every passing life I’ve learnt loss, pain and suffering
Tonight, as a man I stand before you wanting to be loved and to be complete.
This is an ode to my past and a strophe to my future with you.

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The Distant Shore

““Promises were a lot like impressions. The second one didn’t count for much.”

 

After all this time, no matter how hard I tried,
I could never learn to give up hope
If you ever trace back your steps,
reach the horizon where we became you,
I’ll be waiting by this shore in your memory,
fighting the need to be loved and desire to live in the past
where I learnt the true meaning of your name
Where I learnt to let to go even before I could hold your hand
With every rising tide I wish to become one with it
And with every receding one I move further down the shore
One way or the other I will find you
or the endearing question of what life holds for me in the end
I do not wish for you to look back,
to seek the pain you walked away from
But the fear of losing you is overbearing and I’m held on to the sea
May the stars carry away your loss and greif as you grow distant
May the beauty you bring upon everything around you fill the void inside
May love seek you again to hold your hand when you need it most!

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The Neverland!

This post has been published by me as a part of Blog-a-Ton 57; the fifty-seventh edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. In association with ​Madhu Vajpayee, the author of Seeking Redemption and Shades Publications, the publisher of Friendship- Bonds Beyond Time

 

“… but I could also write about love. How holding someone’s hand can silence a thousands voices and how someone’s smell can make you feel at home even though you’re a million miles away”

 

Resplendent thoughts, words more glorious
Than what they used to be
Looming in my reverie state
Alit from the borrowed light
Of the full bodied moon
Still shy to reveal its dark-side to the curious ones
The ambiguous souls,
yearning to learn the secret of hiding their own
You could always see me for what I am
Or was it right through me
As the ghost from an ephemeral plane
Undiscerning to the naked eye
Undaunted by this world
Blurring with every blink
The very night ,eager to vanish on me
Like the lover who would disappear
Once brought laughter that etched onto the walls
Where we broke our innocence,
Kissed until the color drained from your lips
Where our awkwardness became the things we loved
Our bodies, an adventure for the other
Every touch of your skin borne into deepest parts of mine
The night we held each others hands
We exchanged vows of eternity amongst us
The night we unyoked the dreams of the perfect life
Seemed to have been engulfed by something darker
With the advent of time, distance and our primal fears
Dreams of mulling over your name,
Ringing with the dulcet note in my ears
Seem to be drifting into a limbo to which I do not hold the key
Now the lucid nightmares have become my sweetest dreams
When it dawns, we would have been carried further away
Away from our crossroads
Your contempt and my respite helping us to drift apart
The life we wove together
Would be the horizons we can never reach
When it dawns, the lines on my palms would be erased
The memory of every touch withdrawn with it
An uncertain destiny whispering into my ears
Caressing me, to hold my hands that you once held,
I shut my eyes as I’m carried away
I want to wake up in the Neverland.

 
 
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The Sands Of The Shore That Never Was!

 

I am the beginning and the end
The secret that has never been said
The one who saw beneath your naked flesh
The truth about you
As the secrets come undone,
I’m still hanging on to the strings of yesterday
I’ll take away all your confessions,
I love the heartache that comes with it
Reveling in its pain, the truth that burns me from within
I drowned in your river
To be carried into your silent seas of love
Past the violent streams
But I never made it till the end
You took away my aggression,
Now it has found its way back to me
Please forgive me as I laid waste to our time
You deserve a love that would set fires in your world
Not through mere words,
But through touch and everything you yearn
All I have left now are punctured lungs
From the moments spent drowning within you
Never trying to save myself
And a desiccated heart
Holding onto a teardrop
An evanescent hope to stay alive
I am not trying to write you into a memory
A song nonetheless, you’re too sacred for it all
My words would never be justified
As the yearning still lives on,
Your laughter still clawing into my skin
Clarity screams louder than the chaos around me
As the night approaches
I’ll fade into the darkness with the shadows
A secret you could never keep
And when the light tears past the horizon of our past
I hope love will find you again as I found you once
And time will complete what I started
For you were the poem I could never write from the beginning.

 

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A Testimony to Emptiness

The poet takes the fall
The ballads turn to the darkest alibis
The bottles’ staring at me
Emptied faster than they could sing
The sorrows’ in the sky
Clouded thoughts reigning from within
The memory of your touch
Buried in the bottom of an ocean
The promises that we made
Shattered all around us
If I could instill faith into the frightened heart
Search the place where my courage fell
If I could travel back in time
I would have held you closer than tonight
If I could build a bridge between us
Paved with words strong enough to hold you as you walk
If I could see in the dark
I would guide your destiny
I would wait for your love
As the cobwebs of time are shrouding over me
You are my temple of thoughts
And I’ll be the desecrated god in you
Will you remember who I am
A whimsical imagination
And the marks that I left behind
On every inch of your skin
Was a witness to something true
Something that I would die for again

 
 

Testimony

Love Me Forever!

 

I have a wish I’ll ask you to fulfil one day
A wish to love you for the rest of my life.
To wake up every morning with you by my side
Listening to your heart beating against mine.
All I wish is to gaze into your eyes
Listening to your silence
As we share our dreams
To share everything with you
To see deep into your heart
And wash the past scars away.
To talk about the little things
That caught your attention.
To learn to be captivated by you
All I wish for is to put my arms around you
And hold you tight.
Give your heart a warm and safe place
To come home to rest each night.
All I wish is for you to feel
This burning fire deep inside of me
To touch and taste the sweetness of our love
As our bodies become one
To share this deep passionate love with you
To kiss those sanguine lips
Seeping with passion and lust
That I had never felt before.
All I wish for is to walk hand in hand
Along the beach as we make memories in our heart and footprints in the sand.
As we sit and watch God paint a perfect sunset for us to share.
All I wish for is you to love me and grow old together with
To watch our life unfold
A fantasy to many, envy to others, but to me you are my dream come true
All I wish for is you to love me forever and its forever you!

 
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Mired in a Chocolate Fantasy!

 

“Happiness. Simple as a glass of chocolate or tortuous as the heart. Bitter. Sweet. Alive.”

 

Hung upon the darkness
Silhouettes, of our memories
The shadows, of our love
Becomes clearer as it seems
The reflections of the light
From the skins of the yester days
Have blinded every thought
As if I’ll never see
The moment stops for us now,
Hell freezes over my head,
The devil escapes from within me
From places locked up deeper than before
The redolence in the chocolate’s steam
Escaping from my cup,
Drawing my demons out
As it would to the other insects
And the likes of everything that crawls
My conscience is spinning around me
Before it’s hurled back into time
As a ghost I stood there, near our younger selves
Watching as we watched each other through our gleaming eyes
When we had only met for the first time since we loved
And without hesitating
I searched for the hunger dwelling beneath those eyes
I stood there watching above us as
A figment of memories past, you wouldn’t care about now
Yet, as our skins touched that night, as your fingers grazed mine,
As we bared our souls naked to each other
And as we both leaned in
I stood there watching, as our parched lips touched so innocently
Kissing and quenching the thirst in each of us
I watched by that moment, the one that you could never forget
The night that I thought I had found the reason for my life
Hovering above us I followed,
As we tightly held each other and went to our abode
Our foolish youth made us snicker, as we dubbed it our very own love shack
The laughter died as soon as I shut the door behind me,
I was looking at you now, and there you were,
The goddess of my love,
The air thickened inside, with our lust for each other
As every moment our skins never touched seemed an eternity in time
I pulled you closer to my breath and you didn’t hesitate,
To acknowledge my desires
As we pulled the curtains together and revealed ourselves under the sinful light
The warmth of your skin drawing me towards you,
Sensual and passionate as I had always promised
Young and in folly, we had dreamt of this night in so many ways,
Unknown to the ways of making love, we fumbled and laughed as we kissed
And in the corner, something made me turn my head
You saw what I had seen, and you nodded instantly
You laid there barren, waiting for me to open up the bottle
To pour the darkest chocolate onto the smooth sun-kissed skin of yours
And on that night I had tasted my sweetest memory. 

 

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Dead Letters!

“A dead letter is a letter that has never been delivered because the person to whom it was written cannot be found, and it also cannot be returned to the person who wrote it.”

 

The sunlight gleams onto the skin of my hands
Tearing through the clementine shades of curtains
Unwashed and scented with wood and musk
Tiny particles hovering to the wonder of the naked eye
Escaping from the fabric as it rustles quietly
The eerie silence fills the ears
Except for the very faint crumpling sound
That of my trembling skin
And the parched paper underneath it
A wilting rose of forgotten scent above it all
Crumbling to the faint breeze that blows onto it
The lost time, held as droplets on its petals
I look down onto the floor, I see no shadows cast
The light passes through me,
Throwing doubts onto my existence
Yet explaining this moment so vividly
The loneliness, the void
The absence of everything
As my fingers move, so wearily
Over the blank spaces, leaving behind a trail of ink
Black or blue, who were to tell
The hue of despair, defeat and sorrow
What words and colors to tell the bruises
On the knees that spend eons genuflecting
Looking towards the empty skies,
Awaiting the sound of your footsteps
Tracing back the path you walked alone
Dreaming of a world, where we’d grow old together
Where I’d still bend my knee to pray
When our time comes, that we’d leave together
Into the passing of our next reality
As my conscience comes hurling back
Into the empty vessel sitting on this rotting wood
My fingers begin to move again
To finish the dead letters I had begun with
I close the covers and seal the letters inside
To you I shall leave it here on this mahogany wood
Wherein lies the scratches of our mistakes
Should you ever come back looking for me
I hope the echos of my voice in the air
Will whisper these letters into your ears.

 

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Again!

Into the mists, colder than our hearts

Where the eyes can’t see much further than us

I’m afraid of what lies beyond

Don’t let go of my trust, I don’t have a silver yarn

To guide me back or I’ll be lost here forever

Closer, to the edge

If you regret the moment that we ever once had

I’ll turn around and never look back

Into the hollow dreams I’ll push myself

Just clear this mist hiding the truth between us

Where the memories fall into the deepened dark

I’ll show you my fall, the way I’m going

But don’t follow me, for it’s a cruel world

Where I wouldn’t know you for who you are

And I’d fall in love with you again!

 

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