The Ballads of a Stranded Soul

"The teller and the tale are very different, never forget that"

Home is where darkness is!

“I need you to find me, I can no longer breathe
I want you to touch me, just to know I still feel”


The world turns quiet in its stupor,
Drunk with your smile and its beauty
Unaware you sleep, ever so quietly
And your silent breath rises to obscure the air
The near-quietness of your warmth has awakened the stars,
Who draw their light from your skin that seeps into this wayward night,
Your silence wreathes a chaos unto this world,
Your thoughts dislodge to become my dreams,
of all hope in hiding and truth
And you are only sleeping, as my world is moving around you
Patiently awaiting for a celestial dance with your soul.
I wish I could seek the strength to say these words,
When the morning light ever so gently wakes you up
But the very look in your eyes
Makes my world fall out of order
Makes my words incoherent and
Makes me a blithering fool for you to see
And I would recede to shadows
Until again the darkness of the night provides me refuge to your world.






The heartbreak that was always meant to be!

“Those who fall in love with fire are bound to be burnt to ashes”


A vesper I kneel to say, with a dying devotion, a heartache, that consumes the flame of a fading emotion

Desires lost, words forgotten, a life once mine now belongs to none

A love once yours shall remain forgotten in the shadows beyond the veil 

A world once ours will remain in ruins untouched deep within

Anger, dissidence and hatred have become my acquaintances

Faith, happiness and hope, treasures of the trove unretrieved

Any light brighter than the darkness has become unbearable for me to see

The pitch black abyss has become my abode to live

Beauty lies in the bitterness I taste, in the sorrow that I bear witness to

In the despair, the beacon of darkness that I hold on to

In the shadows, waiting among the smoke of dust and in the echoes of our memories

I stay to sing an eulogy, for the lies we once lived

A distorted world, a misconstrued past, the mistakes that bear no salvation

These will be my legacies, my swan song, my carnival of rust

Make your way as your destiny decides wishfully devoid of strife

Escaping the circles of undone promises, the catatonia that is my whim

Touch the moonlight, seek the stars, smile as the sun shies away

Climb the walls that held you down

And on the sharper edge of this knife of self-destruction, I will always wish for your happiness

My resolve has come undone, the only thing left unbroken within me are my brittle bones

As the air is thinning, as the voices begin to dull, there is nothing left to fear for me here now

And as the ashes of  our Eden falls, I’ll shun the heavens above us in my every song.






“It is more necessary for the soul to be cured than the body; for it is better to die than to live badly.”


Orwell, Bradbury, Francis-Marie Arouet, Voltaire as we know him
Philosophers of the yore, in mire their words galored
In me they imbued, like the water through a cactus root
Deeper did my apathy grow, into the sands of my parched soul
A vibrant artist once, I stopped to see the colors,
The world was much simpler in many shades of black and white,
Every heartbeat would reconsider its purpose, dimming lazily with every minute
Stoic to every cheer, joy, smile and cry around me
Emotions replaced with obligations, the candor of life as such was comforting
Waste not the words that seldom would change a thing in this world I would sing
But tonight I’m the fool to my own folly, a whimisical soul,
A madman with an avarice for love
For your love, I demand more
For your life, I’d fight any war
For your smile, I’d fall again
Everything I’ve believed in, reduced to ashes, and from within them like a pheonix
Rose a feeling so undying, in the sprited world, so discerningly true
With every glance in your direction, time beseechingly begs me to believe
That it is real, it is short and it is fate’s cruel companion in agony
Before I knew, I lost sight of you,
Over a dilemma trivial, I couldn’t count those aeons that passed by when I saw you
I couldn’t walk past you, beacuse it’s not the victory I seek
And I couldn’t walk beside you because every moment would be to redeem the worth of me
I couldn’t walk behind you because your shadows would enlighten my world
With brightness I wasn’t accustomed to see.



Hey Stranger!

“Whisper goodbye as your fears are slowly shattered
Whisper goodbye to a million man made heart beats””


My dreams aren’t mine to keep anymore
I’m on a plane, amidst the clouds
Suddenly there are flashes in my head
The clouds, they have names
And I recite them loud as I point at each of them
And besides me I’m holding you
Eyes glistening with fascination
Pretend or true I cannot tell, but darling I don’t care
The smile I evoked has wreaked havoc within me
While all this is a dream I cannot keep
I cannot stop dreaming about it, this fantasy
Every strand of your brow, has a tune
A tune that my hearts beats to
Frantically with every second I think of you
Every wrinkle on your lip, sings a song
A song that I would sing
As I march into every war that’s waged on me
One fleeting glance, one evanescent smile
One day was all it took to take my dreams away from me
One more chance, should our paths collide,
I wouldn’t care for the world
I’ll bring chaos upon it,
Just so they can witness your smile
As it tames the turbulent heart,
And your spirit that shines
For the salvation of this bard.



In Silence Shrouded!

“A lonely Journey in a Darkened Dream
Time has come to spread my wings”


Forests, cold and still
Canopy of ashes replacing the green
The eternal skies
Failing in its task to shine the light upon us
As the birds of the night cry
For our damnation
To guide the souls that are lost
To provide solitude to those who wander
Into grief, and a storm of sorrow
To show them the landscapes less morose
To instill faith where there is no hope
The place where I dwell
The home to the despair thoughts
Where the shame that hung by the chain
The noose around the neck, falls free
Because this garden, albeit cold
Is wrapped within a shroud of autumn hues
Where the quiescence fields smell like you.



An evening to remember!

“I need your grace, to remind me to find my own
As we lay here, trying to forget this world”


Nobody ever asks how you have been
With the truest intentions to know
And until when I was questioned by you
I’d smile and say that I’ve been great
Though I could barely make it through another day
It felt fulfilling to not lie once
To answer your question with a gleaming smile from within
Alas! too shy to bar my teeth
Conscious thoughts imprisoning my will
To just scoff at your formal gestures as we stood amidst a crowd
To just pull you closer and embrace your warmth forgetting this world
It took half the time to create my world with you
Than it took for me to look into your eyes again
Let your thoughts stay with me tonight
To train the chaos of my thoughts
Into decipherable dreams of you and me
Let your presence linger around me
I’ll promise to muster the strength
To smile looking into your eyes again
For with every glance of your face, eons apart
Clarity beseeches me to throw myself in submission to your heart.




“Show me the heart unfettered by foolish dreams and I’ll show you a happy man.
But only in their dreams can men be truly free.
‘Twas always thus, and always thus will be”


The perfect poem recited itself in my ears
As the perfect setting of silence accentuated the hues so mellifluously spread
For the perfect woman to walk this earth
Every spoken word that followed lost its meaning in me,
Sounding to me just like any other strum of an instrument
When the struggle is evident,
As life itself scatters around you to find the most meaningful gestures
To praise your beauty, your existence,
The sense of purpose you weave into this world
I sit here amused, watching the sun set with its brilliance dimming in shame,
Its light exhausted in its efforts to outshine you
And with its fading light my will withers
To justify every breath I spend not in your embrace
But in the company of loneliness
As the skies light up from a scarred orb in the night,
Glowing in reservation fearing the very grace
That sent the whimpering sun to the other side
Little does the world know that the moon draws it’s light from your celestial smile
As the sun was no where to be found
Heavy breaths of sighs escape me as the sleep eludes tonight,
Every countenance I gaze upon bear a striking resemblance to yours
It’s only nigh till I lose my insanity
To this obsession of not being simple when I’m thinking about you
But when these words find you
I hope they sing with a more poetic tune than I could ever do.



Flickering Flames! 

“And every time I go to bed
An image of you flickers in my head
And every time I fall asleep
An image of you flows in my dream”


A garden of roses
The quaint colors of the skies and the rain
Every subtlety of nature
Seems more apparent than never before
Fires more raging
Even with the winds whistling over them
Undying unrelenting
Just as my will to witness your smile
Over and over again
A hope disguised in a speck of dust
Floating in the path
Of your glimmering light, rapt with frenzy
Escaping reality
As excuses run thin, as the truth unfolds,
As my cowardice flickers
Just as the flames that lighten your face
I can sense the apprehension
But I would burn the bridge between us
And let the distance stay
So the embers burn bright to keep the flames alit
As the gaze to your smile remains.



Salvation to my world!

“You are the avalanche
One world away
My make believing
While I’m wide awake”


I wake up, wake up to smell of roses
In a desert I pray the wind doesn’t change
It seems harder than before
To make words rhyme to my shame
Is it because the memory of your smile
keeps playing over and over again
The moment of unparalleled joy, that gratuitous smile
All inescapable in this screaming field of dreams tonight
I wish I could spend every minute of every day to tell you
That every moment passed since then was just a picture
Perfect with colors I haven’t witnessed before
Your smile just makes me wonder
Why do we trivialize our existence
When we have much at stake
Why fight for terror and our jaded gods
When we can fight for ways to make you keep that smile
For eternity I will be the ballad who would sing to this world
The rumors I once sought for, as a virtue stands before me
The skies cry as they let an angel fall amongst us
So let me dream of a gentle kiss
As I gently sieve your hair with my hand
Holding close to me, the salvation to my world.



Everything Fades Away!

“For your love I’m sorry
For your pain, don’t worry
Everything fades away”


As you remember the silly thoughts
You’d be writing about
You let your feet run cold
Till they run you down
Run you weary and tired tonight,
till time goes back from whence it began
A second chance, where you’re willing to see
The thoughtless memories
As everything bleeds
The uncertainty in you
As a shadow leaves
A familiar shape of light
flickers into a figurine
Hope wanders into the woods unknown
Would you still follow it tonight
Believing maybe tomorrow is a better day
Or would you just let your tears run down,
Let the shadow disappear,
Silhouettes forgotten
would you just let the darkness fill the night.